Sunday, November 11, 2012

November 11, 2012

Well, our decision was made for us.  We were faced with the decision whether to put Brynn on a clinical trial for chemo or traditional treatment.  We were definetly leaning towards the trial because it used the same drugs as the traditional but added a new one in addition that was not proven yet.  We were not able to start the trial until Monday or Tuesday which concerned Brynn because she just wanted to get going, worried that things were growing and spreading.  The one concern the oncologists had was this infection she is fighting from the biopsy that they didn't want to get worse with the trial.  We then learned on Friday that she no longer qualified for the trial because of the infection she is recovering from.  It was almost a relief that the decision was no longer ours- and the concerns we had with the trial drug were no longer an issue.  Brynn was glad we could start chemo yesterday instead of waiting a few more days.  One of the biggest concerns Brynn had was the size of the chemo pills that she was going to be taking daily.  She has really struggled with swallowing pills and she gets very anxious wondering how big they are and if she is going to be able to get them down.  They talk about "tender mercies" and I believe we had one yesterday when they brought the pill in and we were so surprised how small it was.  I teared up with relief knowing that she could do it and it wasn't going to be a huge obstacle for her every single day!
She got her IV chemo and took the pill no problem yesterday and then Brynn asked for a pass to get out for a couple hours before her next IV antibiotic.  She was feeling great so they gave the okay- she was so excited to just go to the mall a couple block away and get out of the hospital for a bit.  When we got there- we were barely there 20 min and she said her head was starting to hurt.  I gave her a morphine pill but it did nothing and she was getting worse by the minute.  I've never walked so fast pushing the wheelchair as we hurried back to our truck to get her back to the hospital.  I called them to let them know she wasn't doing well and we would be back in a minute.  She started throwing up in the car and it continued for the next hour.  Her head has never hurt so bad and it killed Kevin and I seeing her in so much pain. Her blood pressure was extremely high which they thought was from pain and if they could get enough morphine in her then it would go away.  Brynn started asking for the blood pressure medication that she had a few days before- as soon as that was given it was almost instant relief.  We were so happy to see her comfortable again.  Kevin just held her head in his hands until she knew the pain was gone. 
The night was not too bad- still pain in her back that required morphine every few hours but no headache.  We said alot of prayers last night and they are trying to figure out why her blood pressure has been going up every other day.  We pray for the doctors to be guided in knowing what to do for her so she gets the best care possible.  Brynn continues to amaze us with her positive attitude and quick wit.  She is always making us laugh and smile and is such an inspiration.  Hopefully we will be able to come home in the next few days and then will be making weekly trips to Calgary for IV chemo.  We miss the rest of our family so much and can't wait to be home all together again soon!

4 comments:

  1. We are praying for all of you, especially Brynn! What an example of strength. Thanks for sharing your story and keeping all of those of us who are praying up to date with how you are all doing.

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  2. Glad to read the update! We continue to pray for you and your entire family, especially Brynn. Especially love the 'tender mercies' that you describe. He knows and loves and is watching over you all. Thanks for your example of strength and courage!

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  3. We love you guys so much. You are all doing so well. Christy thank you for taking the time to keep us updated, I know its not easy- its so hard to see some of this in print. Brynn you are so strong, I hope the doctors have your blood pressure stuff figured out and you will be feeling a whole lot better soon! We are praying for you, for Brynn feeling better, for healing, for quick answers and decisions to be made that you will all feel at peace with, and that you will get to go home very soon. Im so glad that in the midst of all of this hospital stuff you are still finding some positive things, keep looking up, keep counting your blessings.

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  4. We will pray for strength for your family. I am in Calgary's on Sunday nights. I'll see if you are still there & stop for a visit.

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